YSaturday, September 03, 2005
today's been a total drag..literally.
i've been lazing at home the whole freakin day and worst, i DIDNT study....ARGH!!
i didnt have the mood so i figured that i shouldn't waste my time trying to concentrate even..heh. was supposed to study with kengkee and shi and mebe py at airport in the mornin but i woke up late cuz i slept at about 3am..chattin on msn wit ammar and khairul and kengkee darlin..haha.
CrapZ..and im cancelling on Darius too tonite for overnite study..
cuz to overnite there literally means wasting my time.heh. so i'd rather try to mug at home or mebe sleep?? hmm the latter seems more appealing.
well let's see tonite when the clock strikes 11pm..heh.
anyhowz..after we chatted yesterday..i duno why but it just felt like he's not happy..
i duno whether it's me and my stewpid instincts or is it true..cuz i sense the loneliness...
that mebe last tyme he was toooo damn used to havin some1 to talk to evry nite
and now not anymore..heh.
i listened to him host the qts radio tingy and GOSH i missed his voice..
like really..soo..indescribable..haha..
im still bein a nun..dun wori..
it's just the little moments that u still wish for hope u noe..
im sure you guys have felt this way before..
and im just gona keep clinging on to it and hope that if he's not the one..
i'd still get to at least find someone like him in 7years or less..
and tis time around i swear i'll take it slow..
cuz i think that that was the mistake i made when i was with him..i rushed.
i wonder why did they break up..
though it's none of my freakin business..heh.
it's just human isn't it? to be curious...but it can also be a turn off..so yeh.4get it.
o yeah..did i tell u he's still as cute as ever??
my frens told me that i'm blinded cuz he's grown FAT..
but wth...it doesnt matter..cuz looks dun last.
yesterday i was kinda like reminiscing the times we spent together b4 i went to bed..
i noe that i've told you guys that i'd let go...
i'm trying to let go k..give me more time..2years is not enuff..
well..i gez im gona stop blabbering and dreaming..
gota cover Economics now...tsk.
LaterZ!
gez wat?? i'm listening to how could an angel break my heart..LAME.despo song! haha.
wait.! does that make me lame and despo too....?
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